My Arrival and my Journey to my New Life

To be on with my journey to the world I never knew … and to leave all the bad memories behind. But I will not let go the good and sweet memories I had for the past few years. Today was a great day … its start of with a few laughs and a bit of regret. Okay how bout I start from the beginning … hahah … cos my farewell took a few days … XD

19th September 2009 …
Woke up around 9 something … packed a bit of extra things I need and clear toilet … hahah … then around 11 like that ... me and my friend went to Q'bay for one last time ... had Jap food for lunch ... and walk around ... and i took them to the ROOM ... XD .. i love that shop ... hahah ... so ... around 2 something ... went back home .. and continue packing a little extra things ... hahah ... then ... i dono wat happened next ... lol ... oh ya !!! around 6:30pm getting my luggage down from my room ... and when out for dinner ... after that straight went to the airport ... ahahah ... my dear buddies and daughter came to see me off ... so touched .. WEE ~~~ we took some pics and then chat a little ... and took some more pics ... then i'm off ... to KL first ... then transit to DUBAI ... muahahahaha !!!!

20th September 2009
urgh ... waitingt for the flight from KL to DUBAI ... guess wat time is my flight ... 2 am in the morning !!!! GOD ... i need my sleep !!!! can't sleep ... been walking around the airport for ages !!!! then met my friend who is going to the same place with me ... both of us ... waited and waited ... Finally !!! the plane is ready !!! and off we go ~~~!!! ... well in the plane there isnt much to do ... except sleep , watch movie ... sleep again ... watch movie ... sleep again ... so ya ... around 12pm ... FINALLY !!!! WE had REACH UK !!! hahah !!! then we off to our accommodation , Leazes Parade!!!! it wasn't half bad ... meet some new ppl ... all of my Flat mate are Chinese ... 4 from China ... 1 hong kong/singaporian/Taiwanese (dont ask...==)... 1 Malaysian ... thats me !!! XD ... i unpack my bags ... called my parent telling them i'm fine and all ... so thats about it ... oh !!! that night we, the newcomers had a social event ... Bowling night ... well to me ... its more like a pub night cos ... most of us didnt get to bowl ... but end up going to a Pub near by ... so ya ... In the pub ... i also met some new friends ... 2 from Bahrain .. some Japanese girls ... and some dudes ... hahaha ...

21th Spetember 2009
woke up at 6:30am ... automatically !!! no alarm clock !!! i set my alram at 7 ...but i woke up way befor that ... T.T anyway .... went to the uni for the first time ... a member of the INTO council lead and teach us how to go to our uni ... so we went to a lecture room and listen to the introduction and so on ... well to tell you the truth ... the whole week we did nothing but registering ... listen to talks ... go for social events ... and etc ... no CLASS YET ... so ya ... thats about it ...

well if ya want to look at my picture of MY New life in Newcastle ... i had uploaded Them in Facebook ... cos i lazy to upload them here ...



PS: i had a new FB acc ... so ya ... they're in my new FB acc ...


Enjoy !!!

Love,
Vanessa V.PooLover

Letter of Love & Memories

hey hey ~~~ my darling Girl wrote me a 3 paged letter !!! wow !!! I'm totally surprised !!! she passed it to me when i give her my phone to her ... but in the letter got quite a lot of grammar mistakes ... hahaha !!! Anyway ... i decide to retype it exactly the same as she written and post it here and add in some of the corrections ... the () is hers ... the [] is mines ...

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Hey mommy!

Phei, thanks for being such a good friend. Well you know, I know, that we ♥ each other. X) Let see, I met you in CES … but I can’t remember how we started talking. Can you? I bet you don’t remember too. Haha! As you know, I used to hate CES. But after I met you guys including Dany my life has changed. Mann, our first outing was … I think is in your house? NO! My house, squash! LOL! Okay, and also swimming (I hate it the most) Hehe… and remember the part that we called [order] chicken rice? Haha! You suck at ordering food. XD I know, I know I’m [a] sucker but I’m just er … 15 years old? (Last year)

Did I ever tell you that I ♥ ur house?! So BIG, NICE & unique! Except your BIG BIG DOGS … hahaha! The first time I went in your house when we are having BBQ. [It’s “was the time we were …” lah my dear not “when we are”] I still remember I had gastric that time. You, Fang and Hao was helping me the whole time in the kitchen. (: Thank you. Babe. You’re not just my friend, close friend nor good friend. You’re like a family to me. A sis & mum! (NO wonder hazell call[s] you mummy) X) [“Mummy” I’m not dead yet my dear]

Vincent’s house …
Haha! During Chinese New Year, you humans (You, Fang & That Bastard [don’t like saying his name]) are the first human-friend that gave me Angpao! X) OMG! Do you know I still have the Angpao with the money?! Haha … AHA! We drank beer. My face was so so [repeat?] R-E-D! But I’m not DRUNK. Later on, oh right before that … when we are [were!] eating, talking about balls, who’s [whose] balls … and etc. … It was Fun tho [though] it’s dirty. X) With you around, my brain will never be clean … (: (in conclusion, ur fault) hahaha! Oh right, Hao came late, after that you people took video of me. Er … can’t remember what video. X) LOL!

Fang’s house …
OHMYGOD! Talking about her house … YOU people took video of me TOO! And well [were] hiding from me. I still want to know what you people did when I were sleeping. Hahaha! Aha! We are [were!!] having steamboat…. Hao bought his guitar … (show off, dude) LOL! Don’t tell him that. X) Nothing much we did that day … but still its F-U-N.

QUEENSBAY! (:
We went to watch … okay, a movie that is PG18. Hahaha. That was the first time, and yet, no one stop me. X) Well with my childish face … it’s hard. X) In the movie, we are the nosiest people … when comes to the kissing part and … ehem … you know what. XD and also, I’m sorry again that I came late … X) I was watching cartoon that time. Hahaha! You people went back early, left me alone in queens. Hahaha! Wait I’m not suppose to laugh here! X)

Dany’s mother’s Birthday!
=) heh, after school, rush back home, bathe and poof to her party! Nothing special happen that day … because we’re suppose to ACT good-innocent kid[s]. X)

Seriously, I can feel the changes after everyone went up to EG3 except me. I was sad, er … upsad [what? You mean upset??] … That’s the time, I’m not really close to you people. I don’t know what happen to some of you … well you should know what I’m talking about now. Phei, he is useless … ignore him. You can’t stop a person[‘s] mouth, so just be happy & show him … “you don’t need him-attitude” go get a daddy for me in UK. I don’t mind to have more than ONE dad … X)

Thanks for my birthday surprise! You know, so Far, this was the BEST! You know why I cried? It’s because I thought you people totally forgot about me … you know, since I’m not in CES anymore. BUT … , when I see u people … truly, especially Dany … I’m very happy. Now only I release, Dany don’t treat us as his student[s], BUT FRIEND! Same as you guys … tho [though] I’m different than all of you as in age and school … but, out Friendship will remain forever & always. (: no matter how far we go, promise keep in touch! Babe, I really hate seeing my friends leaving, I don’t want you to go! You know, when you told me in CES about you going to UK, I was about to cry BUT no … I must be happy, because it’s a good thing! You’re a lucky chick! Do you know that? Love your Life, but love me MORE! (:

Thank you again for the T-shirts & condom & vibrator … hahaha! Maybe I’ll use the vibrator to massage my hands or legs … X) condom …I’ll keep it until I’m 18! (: Nyahaha! Make sure its safe. XD I love those T-shirts! =) Thank you …

After all the TQ sss …,
Now, I’M SORRY!
Phei, I’m really sorry if I did something that pissed you off or anything that hurts you … please, forgive me. Tell me if I did change, alright? I’m scared of that the most! Don’t ever ignore me! NEVER! :)
Promise??? O.o
Ayyy … honey! I think you should tell them when are you leaving, they’re your friends, don’t they [its “aren’t they”!!!] no matter what they did to you, I mean he did to you … to remain friendship is a good thing. You don’t have to be realy close to him … just friends … and Dany, Fang & Hao … they really do care about you … its up to you … erm to tell them or no [not], but … rethink again … they are your friends …

Okay, I know my English sucks but keep it tho [it’s though!!!!!] … (: My pretty writing will always cheer u up! ><

From/♥,
A monster of yours,
Ching Wen
30 August 2009

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Wen dear ... i will always love you too .... how can i ignore you ?? ... you're my precious daughter !! Hazell too .. XD

about the last part ... I'll rethink about it ... BUT about that friendship ... I tried before ... but he just ruin everything ... and i don't forgive ppl easily for breaking promises ... so keep you're promise ... Stay in Touch .... ^.^

Enjoy !!

Love,

Vanessa V.PooLover

New Look ... New Me ...

Cut my HAIR d !!! ... but not really cut lah .. jus trim it niah ... HAHA

Tired of that BASTARD

whoever read this post ... don't take it personally ... I'm just trying release my anger through this post ...


I'm sick and tired of people who act as if they know me, but they don't even know half of me !


I'm got pissed off ... by this bastard ... whom i thought he was a nice guy ... but ohh no !! I was so wrong ... he ended up being a Fucking bastard that I dont't want to see for the rest of my life !!! For personal issues I'm not going to call them by their real names ... and I know some of them will read this post ... so they will still know who I'm talking about without the names ... SEE I'm still being considerable even when I'm pissed off !!!

okay ... on with my story !!!

It all began some where in February or March ... i cant really remember ... That Bastard and I were not really a couple .. cos HE said he didn't want to be in a relationship ... so i said "fine ... we'll just be something else then " so ok fine !! We often flirt with each other and stuff ... but we really didn't go to the point of a couple ... and we Promised that we would never ever tell a single soul bout us ... that was why I kept on stressing tat we were just FRIENDS not GF or BF when some of our friends keep suspecting us and all !!! but i don't know why ... THAT BASTARD ends up thinking that we were in tat kind of relationship ... HA !! who was the one said that he doesn't want to be in a relationship ?! Anyway , i know he liked a lot of girls that time after he was over with a certain someone ... and i wasn't bothered bout it ... HECK !!! i was even trying to help him with that girl !! so do you think i'm still his GF ?? No ... then for some time .... i say not more than 2 weeks if I'm not wrong ... he wanted watever we're doing to a stop ... he said he is confuse ... he is not sure of his feelings and bla bla bla .... SO ... i was fine with it ... really ... == ... although it hurts a little .. but then we agreed that we'll be bro and sis ... anyway ... we still hang out after that ...

But then i started to become emo and moody and stuff like tat ... well there is a reason for that ... its definitely NOT because of him ... but of my family issues ... well some of my friends asked me whats wrong with me ... of course i said i was fine and stuff ... cos what for do i need to brag about my Family probs ??? No offense guys but my personal issue i prefer to keep it to myself ... I'm a person too !!! Do you think that i'm just a prefect girl who is rich, smart(==|||), Care Free and has everything she wants ??? WEll you're WRONG ... i have problems too you know !!! i may look happy in the outside ... but you don't know wat is going on in the inside!!! and i even told them how i felt in a blog post !!! but they said they don't understand wat i wrote !? come on !!! i expressed my feelings quite Clearly !!! i didn't even use any words that is Tooooo complicated for them to understand!!! i bet my little cousin can even understand wat the Fuck is wrong with me if he read that blog ... == SHEESH !!!

ANYWAY !!!! then ... i didn't talk much to them after that .. except some ... After a few weeks ... he just had to bring it up ... asking me whether i'm Angry or not ... shit like that .. i was was like ... What the fuck ?? why are you doing this to me ?? cant you just leave me alone ??? ... and you know why he asked me ?? Cos he feels Guilty and wanted me to consult him that its not his fault but mine ?!! ARGH !!! BASTARD !! ok fine ... its over !! ... But wat really got me so PISSED OFF is that he told our friends our secret ... which we promise each other that we would never ever tell a single soul ... but unfortunately he doesn't understand what's the meaning of " NOT TO TELL A SINGLE SOUL!" ... how i know this ?? well ... i unfortunately was ask by a friend whether me and that bastard had a thing ... he said that he asked HIM and HE told him ... == ... now what was i suppose to say since he spilled the bean ??? and that not jus it ... one of my girls ... told me that he also told the whole group after a class that i went back home early cos of certain reason ... HE told them the half truth and some that aren't event true ... me JEALOUS of F ?? come on !!! i didn't talk much to her is because there really is nothing much to talk about anymore !!! i still talk to her in Langkawi trip !!! but after that no more !! and how can you say i was jealous of her ?? rude much ... == ... now he is making me look like the Jealous girl ... WTF ...

Now since he broke that promise ... no point for me to keep quite anymore ... i had been quite the whole time just to protect something that he didn't even care for ... Friendship ... Do you want to know the reason why i made HIM make tat promise which he had broken ?? to Protect the friendship among our friends ... think about it ... if two of your friends broke up or had a fight ... it will be really awkward for the rest of the group to hang out and stuff ... but then ... if he just let it pass and didnt tell a soul i maybe will jus forget wat happened and wont become this pissed off ... unfortunately ... it all too late now ...

lastly, i'm glad we ended watever we were doing ... i felt so relief ... and the best part is i dont hav to see his face again ... ^^ i'm happy didnt hav to see his face in my girl's b'day ... YAY ...

And now i had release my anger ... i'm better now ... farewell Bastard ...



Love
Vanessa V.PooLover

A really nice remix ...